Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Really lame picture time: Me with Ember. She has
gotten so big, and has quite an attitude. She also
likes to bite our other cat's butt, which is weird
and kind of disturbing!

These are the awesome amazing new shoes I got on
sale on Ebay. Pretty much epic, Chuck Harris Converse!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010


I plan to put up pictures on here, as soon as I find my camera charger! In the meantime, I am running around like crazy these days! Speeches due, essays due, tests to take... and show choir stuff to learn. Not to mention drama at home, drama with my sister, drama with my teacher, drama with my mom... and then there's the good old Taekwondo 3 nights a week, sauna 1 night a week, and workouts with Ed twice a week. And did I mention cooking, laundry, paying bills, and work? Working for the school, working as a bartender, working on the house. Car problems, hospital visits, and on top of that, I'm thinking about running away. Haha what a life!

Saturday, February 13, 2010


Have you ever wondered...

If you went missing, what would people do?

If we are unique and indispensable, then how did thousands of Haitians die in the Port Au Prince earthquake and not affect us more than a little shock ripple?

How long will the scrapbooks I'm making painstakingly, last?

Why do most Americans live their whole lives to work at a job they hate?

What would we have to go through to convert to a moneyless society? A depression?

Why, if the truth changes with perception, does the American court system use truth as a factor in deciding one's fate? Isn't that flawed?

How can I see Aaron as the most wonderful and handsome man in the world when I know he's not?

Why can't opposing religions see the parallels in their belief systems?

Why are drugs illegal? (Don't throw me the 'harmful to the brain and body' theory, I don't believe it.)

Was there really a conspiracy behind President Kennedy's death?

Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze those dangly things and drink whatever comes out"?

Why are the Southerners protesting gay rights if they really learned from their pro-slavery stint?

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Playing Dolls

I had a friend. Once.

Or maybe I just thought I did.
He wasn't more than a friend, just a friend
But I wholeheartedly embraced him.

Many nights he would talk to me
Intensity sparking from his eyes
And I focused on the lavender
That was him
Not allowing my attention to be swayed
By a loving boyfriend
Or my own aching soul.

Because I cared for him.
Like a brother

And now, it is with regret
That I loved him
Because he is an unstable flame
Flickering with the slightest breeze
A wisp, and our connection is lost.

It's almost as if he thought he could play
With my heart.
A velveteen rabbit, or perhaps a doll
A whole collection of us, he's held
Playing house, and best friends
Every day
Until a new doll comes into his reach.

And suddenly, he's gone.

Without bothering to explain
He suddenly has a new obsession
A new toy to probe and explore,
And love
While the old tried and true friends lie forgotten
Strewn across the floor of his life.

Well, that's all right with me,
I guess
I just have one question:

If you should one day discover
Your new toy is broken
Like the many, many you've had before
-Not saying this one will break-
But do you really think you can waltz back
Pick it all up
Right where you left off
And finish the game you started?

There is news for you, child
It's no longer a game
The day has come
When you're too old to leave your 'toys'
With restless abandon
And find them waiting
Should you fancy to return.

My heart-
My friendship-
Is not a toy.

Friday, February 5, 2010

A Night of Fine Dining and Wine

My friend Chelsey came over tonight. We decided to cook
a mighty fine supper since we are being dealt some nasty
weather! So we made Cheesy Chicken Tortilla Soup (SO
delicious!!!) and cream cheese cinnamon rolls! Yum!!

Some of the BIG rolls!!

Main chef gets to test-taste everything she cooks!

It's good. AND especially with the wine.

Chelsey cut up the chicken. WHY, CHELSEY?!?

The apron said, Kiss the Cook.

After supper we watched The Invention of Lying. OMG SOO GOOD!!! What a fun night.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Inside My Head, Installment #7

The snow is beginning to wear my eyes out. Harsh white glare wherever I look...not fun!! It's a good thing it's February...

I am addicted to love and chocolate and soft fuzzy bears. So... Valentine's Day is my favorite holiday!! Time to celebrate the invention of romance. Even when I didn't have a relationship, I loved Vday. And I actually embrace the commercialism of this holiday. To an extent. So everyone grab your hearts and Ghiradelli's and say it with me: "All we need is love..."

Today my friend Liz and I did something we've planned on doing for weeks. We have a class together at noon. So we watched the clock in our previous classes, and at 11:45 exactly we began chugging down Red Bulls. Then we charged, pawing and snorting, towards our English building, arriving 2 minutes ahead of schedule. We proceeded to bounce up and down in our chairs, whispering fairly noisily, giggling ever so softly, and vibrating our entire desks with energy. Our teacher and the classroom seemed to move in extra slow motion. What a FUN experiment!! We decided that next week we are going to chug this other drink that makes time in our heads slow way down. We want to see if it will look like the teacher is running when we are under the influence of that particular drink. Awesome!!!

I got stitches yesterday. I gouged my arm with some rusty old tools on accident. What struck me as bizarre was that the actual injury barely hurt-just made me nauseus-while the tetanus shot was brutal. I feel like I got slugged with a baseball bat right in my arm. Ouch. Oh, the joy of being accident prone and absent minded! One thought struck me as I sat in the ER, waited on by a nurse, student nurse, doctor, and EMT for a jagged cut and some abrasions. That thought was for the thousands of victims in Haiti. There is about 1 doctor for every 2,000 patients right now. The supplies are so low they are forced to do the bare minimum and hope the patient survives. There are 3-5 people per cot in the makeshift hospitals. People are dying from lack of care, dehydration, and massive injuries. Thanks to the powers that be for the comfort and care we recieve for miniscule injuries in the USA.

Choir was cancelled today. Maybe I'll get extra time to sleep and scrapbook!!! Oh joy. Tonight I have the usual TKD session, followed by the thrilling game of Cosmic Bingo. The prizes tonight are various groceries and toiletries. YAY!!! I plan to win some stuff. :) We have plenty of use for all the resources being offered. Our house is great fun to live with, supplies are the only thing we cringe at getting sometimes. It gets a little costly living on your own! Not terrible, though. I actually have enough money to switch to unlimited texting on my cell! This is a stroke of luck, I am AWFUL at keeping it to 1000 per month!

The word of the day, brought to you by Angel and Heather, is 'moist'. What a nasty word!! Ew. I think tomorrow's word should be 'Tetanus'. What say you, reader???

The thought for today? I don't know. I suppose it should be about debt. Lots and lots of money is owed to China thanks to our love for comfort and instant gratification. So what is China doing? Are they going broke while waiting for us to pay them? Apparantly we are doing pretty good. Right now we are 11th on the list of highest debts owed to China. So we can relax, knowing that we don't really need to pay up-yet! Go us!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Lykke Li Possibilty...

There's a Possibility,
There's a Possibility,
All that I had was all I'm gon' get.

There's a Possibility,
There's a Possibility,
All I'm gonna get is gone with your step
All I'm gonna get is gone with your step

So tell me when you hear my heart stop
You're the only one that knows
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility I wouldn't know

Know that when you leave,
Know that when you leave,
By blood and by mean, you walk like a thief,
By blood and by mean, and I fall when you leave

So tell me when you hear my heart stop,
You're the only one that knows.
Tell me when you hear my silence,
There's a possibility I wouldn't know.
So tell me when my sigh's over,
You're the reason why I'm close.
Tell me when you hear me falling,
There's a possibility it wouldn't show.

By blood and by mean, and I'll fall when you leave.
By blood and by mean, I follow your lead.